I am sorry that you are having a hard time dealing with the loss of your Mom and I can relate. I lost my mom 8 months ago and I am still very much grieving. I am not dealing with it well at all. I feel very guilty about not being there as much as I should for her or seeing her as often as I should. I moved to another state, within driving distance, but my life has been such a mess since I moved and I have been depressed and embarrassed about it so I isolated myself and stayed away from family so that I wouldn't have to talk about it. Now she is gone and I am guilty and angry with myself and at the situation. I won't go into the details but it wasn't expected even though she had health issues and was in and out of the hospital. She has been sickly since a child so it wasn't new. She always came out. Nobody expected this. To make matters worse I am not close to my siblings and things happened during her short illness and after her death that has caused a rift between us. They hurt me and I feel alone now, like I don't have family. So believe me I know about grieving. I can't even give advice on what to do because I don't know myself. I can't stand it when I start to think about things, about those last weeks. I'm sure you can relate. It is excruciating. They same time will lessen the pain. I pray it does for you, me and all of us who have lost a loved one.

Take Care, I will keep you in my prayers.