It seems like it has been going on for years since after a manic episode, I tend to spend 1 to 2 days overanalyzing why again and what can I do next time to prevent the trigger; the guilt paralyzes me. I'm definitely embarrassed more in retrospect because when I do my manic gimic at the time I feel I'm doing a normal activity. It feels endless this cycle of mania and embarrassment. I once hopped on a plane to Puerto Rico because I was upset with my boyfriend at the the time and stayed one night and one day; talk about mania. I don't know if it is proper etiquette to discuss what our pdocs feel about our meds, but only 1 pdoc out of 3 would let me try prozac
during the Spring gloom ( I wanted to ascertain if it would ward off my depression during that time) Within 5 days I was speaking double the speed limit. The other 2 pdocs had refused go give me any type of antidepressant but Wellbutrin, but combined with my Lithium I was still depressed.
Regarding spending money when we don't have it I spent $38,000 in 2 months on credit cards 10 years ago when I was going through m divorce. I settled with them and there went my entire divorce settlement. At times I guess I think that we are
Maureen