Hey. Thanks for your response. I kind of know what they do... One of them sends me mental pictures of stuff that she has done... Not always, but sometimes.

The part thing is funny...

I thought I was a person. But I'm not a person, I'm a part. I thought I was a personality, a self. But apparantly I'm not, I'm a part.

I don't think we ever were together...

Mostly because... Infants don't have a personality or a self they don't count as a person initially... But over time... They develop one... Or... More than one.

I kind of do want to say that.

I know the point is supposed to be integration (though some people are happy with co-consciousness) I want to get properly better... I want to have a more conventional sense of one self / personality. I want to stop missing time and doing bad stuff and I don't want to hear voices anymore either. So I know the point is supposed to be integration...

But I still kinda wish... That they would just disappear or fall off the face of the earth or whatever. Bug off. Leave me alone.

I don't see... How integration is supposed to go...

I mean... If I study and I want to keep studying and get an academic career...

And different parts have different ideas...

We can't do everything. I don't see how this is supposed to work...