well week 41
my grand daughter came home last night,she packed the last of her things , she decided what collage she is going to .... has a job lined up and starts in a week.
I am so proud of her.. so glad she was here this morning.. it made it better.to have some sunshine sitting before me over coffee......I have taught this girl everything I know.. she can run a backhoe and fix it to boot , she will dig an sift all day , and she is a lady a beautiful young lady. she has the knowin of lots of things , for one so young .
Tuesdays are hard for me probably always will be. I have only cried 20 or 30 times today. but no melt downs yet
well I think I have decided to leave next week , head for the hills as they say.
ya see last October November December .... I couldn't wait for July , then as the sadness and depression set in big time I realized why , and the anticipation of it left me , for the reality of why I felt this. Well I don't think I could live with my self, without going there for one night so money or not I am heading north to sit at 10500 feet and talk to the spirits .... then home alone and hopefully with some peace in my soul. and to find a new path in what is left of this episode on the holodeck of this dimension .
TOOK TWO GLASSES FROM THE KITCHEN TABLE TURNED AROUND AND SHE WAS GONE 50 YEARS WE SPENT TOGEATHER why did she leave me to face this world all alone.
well I have to see I have to see a man about a mule.
hope everyone finds there peace.