I have been experiencing symptoms of cyclothymia for about 2-3 years now. I have not been diagnosed, but I struggle with what I believe to be hypomania, impulsivity, grandiosity, poor concentration on multiple tasks, severe anxiety, major depressive episodes, and pressured speech. It has caused me trouble with relationships, work, and my safety.

I'm leaving for Europe for a month in a week. I haven't been nervous at all, but now I'm scared to have a hypomanic episode overseas. What will people think of me if I do? Will I be safe if I get too drunk or promiscuous? I'll have people there from my university who I can reflect poorly on, but no friends there to count on.

Is there any advice for recognizing the onset of an episode? I'm definitely going to watch my alcohol intake and avoid traveling alone. I may just be freaking out now because I'm awaiting my STI results tomorrow (due to an impulsive episode), so maybe I'm more anxious about that now due to the anxiety I feel now, but I could use some words of wisdom. Thanks in advance!

Also, I have been diagnosed with GAD, Panic, Depression, and PMDD. Idk if that helps. Thanks!