Crying is one of my problems, not that I can't stop crying, but I don't want to cry/ I am afraid to cry in front of my T.

Today a very emotional subject came up, and I knew I was going to cry. I have this strange problem where I smile when I am feeling an emotion other than happiness. So I started tearing up and then I smiled, laughed at myself and said Im not going to cry.

My T says I need to cry and need not to be afraid. She put a box of tissues beside of me, but I didn't use them. I noticed when I got teary eyed my Ts personality changed like she was going through what I was going through, her voice changed to a soft comforting voice, and she just watched me with a face full of empathy.

I didn't really cry, but I just started to and that was the end of it. I don't know why I am afraid of crying in front of her, or people for that matter. Just another unsolved problem of mine we have not really addressed.