I imagine my T as a support in my mind when I'm sad or really anxious and scared. I imagine his warmth and sometimes leaning my head on his shoulder. I've never shared this with him as I believe he'd probably freak out but I don't feel it's wrong at all. It really helps me calm down. I don't expect my T to be there forever and I know it will all come to an end (hopefully not in a traumatic fashion this time ) but I know that Ts sometimes worry about legal stuff or ethics - crossing boundaries. My T is the utmost re: professionalism but I don't want him to worry that he's not helping me or that he's fostering dependency yadda yadda yadda.

I really believe that for me, at this time, using him as my "safe person" and his therapy room/environment as my "safe place" is a healthy thing. I don't expect him to take the place of outside supports or anything but I think my issues are with attachment/abandonment and I'm hoping this is a step toward healing for me. I guess we'll see...