T -So it came to our attention tonight , that you and I will probably be attending the same festival this weekend, and there is a better than good chance we will run in to each other. You told me you will not approach me first for confidentiality reasons, but that I could approach you. I wish it wasn't this way. I wish I could just hang out with you, laugh, have a beer...be normal people in a normal setting....but I know that will never happen. I also suspect that you will be there with your girlfriend, that is going to be SO hard for me to see. While I know you are a normal person, with a life that does not involve me , I can't help but wish it did. I just hope your girlfriend realizes how lucky she is to have such a beautiful woman (inside and out) by her side. I'm sure she does.

I really wish life wasn't so hard sometimes. I wish you could "fix" this for me, make these feelings go away...but no one can, only time will heal me....but I fear it will be a LOT of time.