I miss old T so much. New t asked today why I had looked forward to sessions with old t. I have been trying to not think about old t, as it just hurts. But now I'm having all these memories: things she said, promises that were broken, fun times we had together. It takes my breath away and it's like a wound has reopened and now there is a gaping hole. There really was no point to this post. I just... don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop the hurt. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry for what old t and I had. I know its unhealthy but my emotions have taken over.