wildflowerchild
I know it seems hopeless right now, but it can and try to make yourself believe it will get better. The only problem is it takes time to find the right medicine cocktail and dosages. I am glad you have decided not to discontinue your meds. Keep talking to your pdoc and if you are really feeling on the edge try calling and get a sooner appt. I promise there is hope, there are better days to come. I was dx in 2007 and I am in a great place now. Key thing is to be honest with what is going on with you to your pdoc. There are always ups and downs, but keep posting and we'll do our best to help you get through them.