I just want to share, more for me than anything else. I want to one day be able to come back and see this.
I'm really proud of myself today. After 3 months i finally was able to get ALL my stuff out of my house. My h left with his new girlfriend in Dec. I've had to pay rent, bills, car maintnance stuff, everything. I had to move all my stuff out by myself without any help and i did it. I finally did it. Took me 3 months! I've cried, gotten angry, broke a few things. Saw an old family pic today i had thrown when i first found out about the affair...looked at it, felt my heart break all over again. Finished what i had to do. Came home and said F-it...grabbed my two girls, 3 beach towels, swim clothes and took off to the beach at 2pm. Just got home. We swam for a good 3 hours. I feel like i accomplished something today...finally!!! This small little thing...i get to turn in the keys finally!!! I'm so happy I'm done. I never have to go back there again. Finally! I have so much to do but this is the first thing i actually do and finished..i did it! I feel good now. I was sad at first, wanted to come home and crawl in bed but i saw my girl's sweet faces and said "NO! You are not doing this, i will not let you!" And i did what i wanted to do. What i like. What my girls like. My girls and i. We went to the beach and played and i feel so relaxed and renewed. I don't care that this feeling isn't going to last, I'M ENJOYING IT TO THE FULLEST! Thank you for reading, I appreciate your time.