Iīm not very emotional person so most times I donīt even feel like crying. We are trying to get in touch with my emotions and feelings in therapy so I think the crying is inevitable at some point but I SO hate the idea of it. Iīm afraid that once I start I would not be able to stop. I think when the moment comes I will just run out the door.
I didnīt cry when my father died and week later my mum find out she has agressive brain tumor and possibly only 6 more months to live (she got well after 1year and half of treatment). When my two most loved dogs died in my arms or when I was digging their grave....nothing seems to move me enough. Sometimes I feel like a psychopath.
I had something like a break down few months ago (that is why I seeked T) and I had one day when I just could not stop crying while I didnīt feel a thing (other when wtf is going on??). I would hate this day to be repeated or if my T saw me like this.
Sorry that is bit too informative then it had to be but oh well......