This post struck such a chord with me! I would give anything to feel my version of normal for more than just an hour or two at a time. To be able to just go out and experience life without worrying about dealing with emotional waves or being "on" in front of people so no one will find out how screwed up I am. To experience joy without having to prepare for the crushing feeling of emptiness and sadness when that fleeting experience is over.

It is helping to be a part of this community though - finding people like yourself who say what I feel better than I ever could and knowing that I'm not completely alone.

<<HUGS>>