Candy, I can't imagine the sense of loss you feel knowing you gave your son to others to raise so he would not have to share in your struggle for survival. I do understand your grief. I hope that the grief lessons for you. You deserve that. for me with a loss of a child there is the intense grief, guilt, what ifs, shouldas, etc. These have faded with time as I have healed and gotten therapy about some of the thoughts I was holding onto. Candy, you are who you are, to me a good friend, a spirited moral person, a mother, a writer, a woman. We all carry so many pieces of our selves around. As for dad, Some dads have also grieved for the adoption of their child, men sometimes grieve differently or maybe not at all in these types of situations.

Keep plugging away. Maybe in another thread sometime we can talk about money and things and what it means. I have some very interesting thoughts on that.

Take care...