Thank you for the kind words and suggestions.

As for my fear of seeing people I know, its not that they are there for treatment. It's a public health building so encompasses a few options - but really the only reason people go is for new baby help, children's needles, etc, and for mental health. The people I see there are not there for treatment, they work there. I don't know them well, but their kids to go school with my kids etc. Not really confidential, and I'm afraid it will lead them to disclude my kids later on. "Oh no, don't invite that kid to your birthday party". *Thinks to self: Her parent is crazy* kind of thing.

As for adding things into my schedule, I think I may have the opposite problem. I need to keep busy, I don't want any time for my brain to rest because then it races. Keep going, keep going, distraction, distraction. I will take a look though at my routine and see what I can do to balance it better, that is a good idea, thank you.