Thanks for the hugs and replies. I still feel good about my session. I hope I can go this week without emailing my T, too. As much as I don't like to admit it, I think it's better for me. Writing that makes me cry because my child parts wish they could be with T all the time, and not emailing hurts.

I'm taking the medicine T is giving me. She also lent me her SE book that has exercises to do, and she wants me to do them.

"Growing up" and changing is challenging.....but I am more positive about my ability to do it.