Ok so I don't know how many of you experience this but I'm gonna guess at least a few may understand what I'm talking about.

Being the way that I am, I tend to be rather passionate about things that I love whether that be a person, thing or an activity that I'm interested in. Problem is, when I am interested in whatever it is, I tend to get obsessed and over-focused and it engrosses me and takes over my life a bit. I can't think of much else much of the time and all I want to do is spend time with that "item of interest" ... Mind you, I dont' have a problem with being obsessed with things. I rather enjoy it. Aside from people, I don't see it as a problem, I still get along in life and get things I need to done.. etc. (I say aside from people for the obvious reasons this can cause problems in relationships.. but you know that)

The problem I have with these obsessions is that many times, indeed invariably, I cool off, burn out, or fizzle out .. however you wnat to put it and then just slowly have nothing to do with it for awhile. Recently I'd been completely engrossed in Skyrim, an rpg I play on computer. I was doing everything related to the game, playing, reading, modding items for the game ... everything. That's since gone by the wayside.

I have rekindled my love for Anime and Manga (japanese animation and comics) which by the way I've loved very much for over 25 years. While I was married and together with my wife the past 13 years, the subject was deemed taboo by my wife and she forbade me from watching it, as she basically considered all of anime pretty much evil. :/ Anyway.. so I let that go for her. The love for anime never left me, I just stopped collecting, watching and having anything to do with it. But of course, I must add that anime and manga have had a very strong influence in my art and style. Which is another passion of mine. art.

Lately I've felt pretty consumed by watching anime and in between, doing art related to the animes that I've been into. I've become obsessed and again, I have no problem with that. but I have this fear, that it will disappear and I will leave it aside like other obsessions. It really bothers me because I really would like to become a manga artist, maybe an anime artist.. I don't want to lose this passion and it really bothers me fearing the loss of the super focus on it.

Any of you have this fear, that when you're into something completely that you'll lose that passion, obsession that you love so much?

Thanks for listening I know this is kind of a ramble.
~S4