My therapist has been on vacation for three weeks, and I wont see him for another two.
I have been seeing his partner, three times now. Yesterday after our session, I walked past my T office, the door was open, his dog was running around as his partner is taking care of him. I looked into his office, the empty chair just stood out and made me feel very sad. I could not feel his presence there. He is gone. I felt so alone all of a sudden.
Became tearful as I walked back to my car. I miss him so much.

He emailed me once, and sent some photos. I couldn't resist myself, I sent him an email this morning. Describing seeing the empty chair, how his dog missed him, how I shed a few tears, and some heartstrings were pulled. I feel kind of guilty, but I don't think he will mind. It was a very strange feeling, like he had died or something. Maybe it's because I feel so detached from him right now....almost like a death. He will be back in two weeks.
I have to pull up my bootstraps and start acting like an independent person...aaarrrggghh.