And what's with trying to get the help i need now that I want it because i need it? I used to be hospitalized if i said the word fart in the 1980's, now i am a true schitzophrenic, diagnosed years ago, and if i have an episode, which nobody would want to happen, i can't get admitted to the pscyc ward, even while i'm having an episode. These fakers are ruining the system, but i see the doc would probabaly get in trouble if they didn't do something. I used to be fighting the system of being put in the hospital, now i need it and want it and can't get the help i so badly need.