I think you are very brave to make it through that... I would freak out completely and start attacking people... probably why they keep me in isolation and warn me when the doc comes

I think it's normal to feel this way if you have suffered abuse... But sticking through it might make you stronger in the end, by proving that not everything turns out bad and that not all people are out to get you... I am extremely paranoid and know how that can affect a person!!!

I don't have any advice for how you might handle the situation, but I hope it gets better for you.

(((((( freewill ))))))))