S made huge changes for the better after I left. He understands that I left for both of us, because we had become a 'we' and not a 'he and I', if you know what I mean. He completely lost his sense of self somewhere along the way, and forced me to lose mine. I do love him with all my heart and things are so much better between us now. He treats me the way I deserve to be treated- well, with love and respect. That's all I ever wanted.

As for P... well, it's very complicated. To the worst possible degree.