I do fine with a group of people around me. I can talk with people just fine, but when it comes down to being one on one with my therapist it's hard to get use to all of the attention from one person.

I do write in like three different journals every day. I write poetry every day, I draw every day. I do all kinds of things to try to relieve the pain that is built up inside of me. I pray, I ask God for forgivness and I go to church, I do so much that is good in my life. Sure it helps me for a little bit but it doesn't help me to release all of the pain. I would do so much better if I could only talk with my therapist.

Though, what's the point now? She doesn't want to help me any more. I don't blame her for not wanting to help me because there is a lot of issues that I need to work through. I just wish that she would change her mind though.