Oh dear Davmid ~ PLEASE -- see your doctor. You need some help my friend. You're in a DEEP depression and an antidepressant would help you immensely. Oh sure, therapy is ideal, but that would take too long, and you need help NOW. An antidepressant would take a short time to begin working, and that's what you need right now!!!

Don't worry about side effects -- they usually go away, and if they're too severe, then the doc will switch you to something else. Believe me, it's worth trying!!! Ask your doc for an antidepressant that doesn't take long to begin working. Some take as long as 6 weeks to begin! YOU DON'T NEED THAT. You need one that takes just a few days, and there ARE some that work that fast! PLEASE ask him for one like that, okay?

Then you'll be able to think more clearly, and figure out how you're going to move on. You NEED to be there for your children. They NEED their Dad!!
And you've got to be thinking clearly for THEM.

So see your doctor, okay? I wish you all the best my friend. God bless you and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs, Lee