I can tell you i had a VERY deep depression that ended up delusional when I hit the floor. Once I came out of it, it has taken me 6 months and meds to regain some of my previous functioning, social and otherwise. I feel like i am at the stage of attempting social interaction again. It feels awkward and forced and i have to fight every urge in my body to not run away and hide. I am doing the best I can and I am trying to give myself some credit for every time I put myself in an uncomfortable situation because it is freakin' hard. I am so sorry for what you are going through and for the fact that you have to answer questions about it when in social settings. I completely applaud you for putting yourself out there even though it was a hard thing to do. I am doing my very best to not withdraw and isolate (my m.o. when the going gets rough). Just know you are not the only one fighting the battle. I am sorry you are going through it too.