Thread: I can't do it.
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Old Jun 19, 2013, 08:08 PM
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I have gone through my entire life trying to hide my obvious ADD or more likely SCT from my family husband friends employers and teachers. I thought I was going mad... And I was scared and ashamed of my inability to think straight and to remember basic things as they would leave my mind really quickly. I consider myself intelligent and others have re-iterated this, But it is a struggle with my concentration. problems recalling information I have never been a great speller or good at math. I trained to be a chef and when it came to exams I tried so hard to compensate with my disadvantages that I sat in a café for 2 hours drummed all the info into my brain best I could before the morning test and consequently was top of my class with marks. But was un able to retain that info as I needed it after that and had to keep referring to text books etc. Life has been a challenge.I have never had great energy levels and tend to be in a bit of a hazey daydream most of the time. (like living in a bubble) My daughter and grand daughter obviously have ADD but the more active kind and they are more academic. I have not had treatment as I did not know this was my problem until now and having made the realization that this has been my problem has brought me huge relief . ( I just burst in to tears) It all makes sense to me now and I can get some help. I realize now why I have aways said to people , I might not do things the way every one else does but I have come to see that its the way I do things and it makes me who I am...
Thank you so much for you reply. I also have poor retention of facts (for the most part) and my thinking gets twisted so easily. So often I feel like I am walking in a haze, not really "here". It feels so weird and for me only a few things can actually make me focus and be totally engaged and those don't even always work. I have built a ton of coping/defense mechanisms which help cover it up but I don't know if they hurt me more then they help. Ahhh well we'll see...