Hello, yellowted. He is suicidal now. I cannot leave him alone. I had to even hide my flexeril because Im scared he might try something. His self image is very bad also. He cant work & our family is struggling. Today has been particularly bad. He went to a new Gp in hopes of finding relief from the pain. But by new law, abdominal pain does not qualify you for narcotics. Then the doc asked if he had ever been tested for Hiv, which triggered my own obsessive phobia. I told him yes, every time we went to a new doc he/she tested him. This doctor said it was because he was so thin (which right now,.hes lost 8 lbs hes down to 120 & hes 5'11). So now my husband says "Im so skinny I look like an Aids patient?" This was on the way home. Now hes depressed due to the pain AND his apperence. I tried explaining to him that the new doc didnt know his healthy normal weigjt is only 135 and hes never seen him at 108 like I have. But now its in his head he looks sick. Im doing all I can, but I think hes giving up. I cant get him to laugh or smile or talk. I made him take a probiotic today.