I know I've said it before (I created a whole thread saying it), but I just want to be normal. I want to be myself. I don't feel like myself these days, haven't felt like myself since I got out of the hospital this past December. That was my fourth time in the hospital. What happened this time that was so hard on me mentally that it broke me? I wish I knew the answer to that. Either that, or I wish I could just snap out of whatever cloud I'm in that makes me feel not like myself and go back to being me.