I just wanted to let everyone know that I am OK. I have not been on the internet for a week because I switched providers and could not get it to work. I am still under much stress with my husband and all, but the situation is looking better. I told him either you get help or I am gone. He went to the mental health center the next day. I am in the middle of trying to pack because I found an apartment to move to. I did not resort to SI. I was so worried that I would. I think this situation proved to me that I can get through any situation in a positive way. Also, I am back in partial hospitalization to help me cope with the stress I'm under. Also good advice to myself- you feel worse if you forget to take your meds. Effexor withdrawl is not fun!!!