I am kind of angry that she won't accept treatment. The first thing I thought was that she was selfish, especially by the way she said she didn't have anything to live for anymore when we were right in front of her. She says we're now the most important things in her life, that we're her rock or something, but she also says she's got nothing left. Go figure. Not to mention that, in the divorce, most of our (Dad, sister, me) money went to her, and now she's going to let it go to waste. She doesn't even pay a penny for child support. After that passed, I couldn't believe how much of a coward she was. I mean, she was playing the cancer patient role, but she still expected us to treat her with the respect one gives to a cancer patient actually going through treatment. Frankly, it seems like it'd be more difficult to try and fight off the cancer and hope it'll go away, only to fail, than to simply lie there, waiting to die.

It's gotta be hard as hell to love someone and watch them whittle away by their own choosing. My dad's already told me that he's been lonely, because the divorce and everything, as well as him losing basically all his friends in the process. It really sucks being with a lonely dad, in my experience. When he's in a bad mood, he tends to complain openly in front of us. Doesn't matter if it's about expenses, how much his life sucks, how ungrateful we are... he makes sure we know all his misery. It really hurts because we're closer to him, we love him, and we care about his opinion. We can tell when he's in these moods, and it's hard to keep it from spreading. When he's in a downright pissy mood, he snaps at us. Well, me in particular. The more we disagree with him on a subject, the worse he's going to feel, and the more he's going to take it out on us.

M'sorry about your selfish stepmom. It doesn't sound like either of you deserve someone like that in your lives.