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Originally Posted by ihatedepechemode
I've been thinking. What is it about us that makes nons-distorted or not-like us so much? Even to the point of stalking or other erratic behaviors? Of course, I have read the non side (haven't we all). But I have been trying to figure out what is it about me that makes certain individuals come to me?
What I found when looking at past interactions with individuals is that they idealize me, sometimes to the point of worshiping me, for being strong minded and doing things that they would/could not do themselves. I guess it's good to be admired, but I am a bit numb to it because I hear it a lot. But when there is that one person who falls madly in love with you......and this has happened several times....all for this? I feel like they now become like limb that is dead and rotting and must be cut off. Or a person who just jumps on your back and sits there as you are walking, carrying their weight. But they are really-subconsciously or not-pulling you down to their level.
Admiration is good, but to this extreme? No. It's annoying. Now if you were to explain this to them, their reaction would be negative like "Oh so you want me to hate you? Ok." No, I just dont want you all over my body.
So in order not to attract these kind of people, what are we to do? Act like wimps? Lose individuality? No. Be smothered for the rest of my life? No.
Any thoughts on this?
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We are magical people because of what we have. People who are drawn to us for some reason become addicted to something we offer. We do have many things that we do create that draws them in. The difference as "we" know is that when were done, their done. I don't think you should lose your way because it is a strength that cannot compare to most. At the same time it has its weakness too. The one thing that I do love about our ways is the ease of moving on with the ability to have zero guilt, remorse or lose a second of sleep(depending what medice we're on lol) although my therapist may disagree. It really is us who makes what you ask happen. We make them see things they never have, they become completely entangled then we cut them like we know how well to do. Anyway despite the fact that I myself am currently working on change I still cannot stand the nons interference with their stupid thoughts on what they think or feel about our ways. I guess they will never really know what and who we really are!!!!