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Originally Posted by thickntired
Hi,
I wasn't sure where to post this thread. I've been IP for 5 days to partial hospitalization for 3 weeks from a killer manic episode. I met a few patients who claimed to be bipolar as well, but the symptoms and behavior didn't add up imo. Again this is my opinion as a fellow bipolar not a professional. I'm not trying to offend anyone. Obviously wanting to act mentally ill is not normal. I just felt invalidated and offended when I saw patients act only under observation, tell me they want to work the system, brazenly show off scratches or color them with markers to better show where they self harmed. Others were doing a lot of drugs and already drawing checks. It was really frustrating because these ppl were disruptive and just counting down the time until they could leave and get wasted or apply for aid.
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THANK YOU so much for bringing this up. I was in a hospital for severe anxiety (really, to sauy a person isn't themselves with anxiety doesn't even come close). I was in hell, and here in there were these two, like you said, c prosection for drugs. The one was so, so happy to be diagnosed with bipolar. Everybody just looked at her like she was nuts (pun not inteded but there ya are). Except the guy (who was also facing drug charges). By day 2 she was already saner than I'll ever be, lol.
To be in a place like that is like total hell for me...worst times of my life. As it should be. The sick part was, the day I was released (on a drug so strong I had to be prodded into knowing what year it was), I walked home, paid my rent, and went into work, terrified of my mental health. Could I do this? It was a fight...and I did good, I am happy to say.
I really just want to punch fakers out, I hate them that much (gotta be careful, ya know I'm just joking right?). And what do they do? Use their SSD to do drugs. Suddenly all healed well enough to stay sane drinking and doing drugs for days at a time, eh?
I lived at a homeless shelter that took in the people kicked out from the ward. I was really not doing well but fought to stay strong and get better. I was bullied becasue I wasn't the kind of "player" you saw in the hospital. I really was. Staying in a homeless shelter got them SSD that much faster, you see and I guess they didn't weant to be reminded they were fakers (or reported). Monday-thursday they went to therapy, slept in, did nothing. I'd go into work and they'd be sleeping on the sofa (again). I paid rent and they lived there for free wawing their SSD. Come Friday 2pm the bathrooms all filled up with these same women going to the bars. Me and the other (few) working women--and we none of us are proud to flaunt our mental problems trust me, I have scars but nobody will ever see them--we'd call it The Sudden Friday Cure.
Sorry, I'm also not in a great mood. They don't allow regular homeless in the homeless shelter I in anymore, just people out of jail for drugs awaiting SSD, getting to live for free on HUD through the Homeless Coalition. But the real homeless women are on the streets, I pass them on my way home from work. I gave some money to one girl sleeping in the 7-11 lot. "NO room" the shelter I used to lvie in told her, but just inside, drunk and buying booze, were 3 women I knew living in that shelter, against regulations as they are supposed to have a curfew and stay away from booze. All placed there by judges for their protection, hmmph. They sat there at that register snickering at me the same way they did when I lived there with them. Man that set me off.
Sick world, sicker than I'll ever be. And they're the ones designating who's "sick", lol...