Thanks everyone. I I think I had lost sight of some of the practices, of which people here have reminded me, that are useful in maintaining some sort of balance. I haven't really been keeping track of triggers, been getting regular exercise, and I've been overstimulating (way too much coffee in an attempt to compensate for poor sleep). It's weird how you can know that you're setting yourself up for an episode, and yet it takes someone else pointing it out for you to acknowledge it!

That said, today was a good day; while I actually added to my work load in the short term, I landed a new job, in my professional field, which will allow me to quit two others which are not! Sometimes it's settling just to see something hopeful, even if it is a few months in the future.

It really is nice just to know that others are having similar issues and can get through the day. I like what Trippin2.0 said: the goal shouldn't be to cope or to survive, but to LIVE! I am hoping today is not an aberration, and that I'll be living tomorrow, too.