I ended up going and just hanging out. It worked out on because I was hung over from my trazodone. A lot of time to think, but it wasn't as bad as I expected. Them we had a ton of therapy where we accomplished quite a bit. I was disconnected about the topics we covered, but was honest. Now I can't sleep even with the trazodone I took earlier. Ooh well. As long as I can keep from self-harming, things will be ok. The scars ask tingle though. I'm acutely aware of every one. If it gets worse, I'll take an anti anxiety.