At the very least I listened to the overwhelming suggestion to not go see my current guy any more. I had an appointment with him today. I just pulled something that I classically do and did a WAY passive aggressive thing: I called the office really early before they opened and left a message cancelling the appointment today.

Classic me.

I did a "I may or may not be able to answer my phone, but my number is....."

At this point, I almost don't even care if I get billed. Almost... I mean it would still suck.

I'm calling a new place later today. There's a hospital in my area that does both in the same place and they have really awesome reviews from everything I've seen. When I started on this whole process of finding a therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist the only reason I avoided that place was because it was a hospital (a hospital well-known locally for psych care). So in my mind it would have been like admitting defeat...

Sigh.

I'm still admitting defeat... it's just 6 months later.