I don't think you are disorganized as much as trying to work on two levels? Finding a job and relocating is, in many ways, a straightforward, practical, literal goal. You can do "steps" like job searching, going on interviews, reading about locations to see which you might prefer, etc., arranged any way you like.

But looking at why finding a job and relocating may be hard for you is a wholly different problem, based on your past experience and thinking/perceptions. Your anxiety, reading disabilities, self-confidence, etc. are based on those past experiences so "what" comes up (painful memories, depression, etc.) is not out of place at all if you are not focused on the practical?

Being able to see how/"that" your past influences your present (triggering your negative response to the "something may happen") is probably a good first step. If you can tie your past negatives to your present thoughts/feelings, you can better override those thoughts/feelings with "Oh, that's just left over from when I was 7 and my father left us" allowing you to complete the circuit again instead of remaining short circuited so you can get practical things done.