welcome...you will find many people here that share some of the same interests you do and a lot of differences too...including how DID affects you differently than others...

example...with me I didnt feel alone because I had all the alters inside of me...I could hear the voices, I would sometimes find things going on in the home to which I didnt remember doing, even when I lived alone, so there was so much to do...that lead to me being able to occupy/entertain myself, which meant I was never lonely, or crave a lot of things like friends/company..for me I actually enjoyed the rare times when I did not hear any voices, didnt have to go play softball/bowling because one of my alters joined the towns softball or bowling league, or go to this community picnic, work functions.... Most if not all my alters were what my treatment providers call ...categorical...(the DSM called it being distinct....what that means is almost all if not all (because we never knew all my alters, ) had their own jobs, purposes, reasons for being, their own way of thinking and perceiving their environments and others..

but on the other side of things like you I have been inpatient, and at times it did seem like I was moving forwards at a snails pace..

eventually all my alters integrated/became one with me so that now we are one whole person again....

dont worry too much about how you are progressing forwards...each person moves forwards at what ever pace is right for them because each persons internal system of alters is set up how ever with who ever /what ever they needed in order to survive.