Thanks everyone. I have not been working (on disability) for about 7-8 months now. And for the past two months have had my little guy (18 months) home with me instead of at daycare. Thinking we will probably put him back in daycare at lleast part time because I struggle taking care of him full time and need some time to focus on me.

I am becoming more and more co-conscience... which is interesting... Not sure yet if I prefer being out of the loop vs this. But still loosing a lot of time too. I can relate to "having to go" do things. I get signed up for play dates and all kinds of kid stuff. I hate other people's bratty kids. I hate talking about mommy things. But like today, I didn't want to go but I did and little guy had fun and I checked out and let the one who likes that stuff have at it. I would have rather stayed home and colored or read books or cleaned my bathroom. seriously.

Anyway, recently i've just felt a lot like there is no one else on earth that understands - no one believes. Where I just moved from, even my P.Doc didn't believe in DID. Even after I came back from a specialty inpatient program just for dissociative disorders and ptsd - he wants to continue treating bipolar - which i am not.

So it feels good to find this place. I hate it that we all have this one thing in common because that means we all went through some not so nice stuff. But maybe knowing I am not alone in this will help me feel less crazy and isolated from the rest of humanity.

Oh dear I am babbling, as I often do.

Thank you for the kind welcome