Thank you for the wonderful post Happiedasiy. You have some good ideas in there and hopefully I can apply them - as much as I don't want to believe that my treatment is right, I'm not always convinced I deserve better either.

Leed, redbandit, and platinum - it's really hard for me to tell myself others don't deserve my time. Some of these people are very important to me and I know they are good people. The fact that they could treat me like this makes me think it just may all be true, because they wouldn't do it if it weren't.

Gary - turning down the volume. I do like that, and will give it a try.