It seems I have no fears today. Today I'm still angry with my T. . That's a little sad for me because I don't know excatly why I'm angry with her and my emotions are swinging. I shouldn't think so much about that. Today she's not important for me at all.... Now, I could leave her without any regret. Could you tell me why? Any presumption?

Usually I'm afraid of : parting of us (me and my T), to be discovered ,( she will get to know I'm mean rat and my problems are really stupid or they even don't exist). I'm afraid of real closeness between us. I'm afraid also she does not know what she should do with me, how to cure me. I'm afraid of my anger I feel towards her (sometimes I feel there is only anger and nothing more ) and that our "relationship" that's illusion! In the last resort I try not to let my fears get to my consciousness.
Sorry about my English ...I should place this senstence as my signature...and I'm going to do that .