Candybear I am so sorry about your hurt in so many ways. Yes, you are a mom and one that has additional sadness and normal feeling to contend with that other moms What greater sacrifice can someone make but to give up her child for thier betterment. I can only imagine the grief you must feel.

I am sorry that the father does not seem to be feeling the same as you. But he is missing out on one of the important thiings in life and hat is the learning you are now recieving about your child. Yes that can never be taken away.

I hope someday that they will see what you did and that was a selfless act for their good by a mother who would have to live with the suffering of her actions for many years. I am certainly not trying to negate the feelings you are having but recognize how compounded they are by your situation.

It is unfortunate what and how you found yourself. I hope you feel that you made the right one for both you and his long term betterment. It seems you did. '

I hope you don't feel I have minimized any of the feelings you have as that has not been my intent. What has is the compassion I feel for everything that you have had to contend with.

Please contact me if I can be of any help. You are a strong, courageous and kind mother.

Take care. BB