I don't know, I think you're still pretty new at all this. I think over time things will get easier for you. Right now that question triggers you, so you know that's a trigger you can work on, like just lessening your reaciton. It takes work. I think we all have triggers like this. I have them, for sure!

I have faith you'll get better. You may never go back to exactly where you were, but I think in time you'll start to even out. I mean, 5 months is not that long. Recovery is different for all of us.