Even inpatient stays in places specifically for dissociative disorders (I stayed 21 days in one in Washington, D.C.) are not that magical or special. I was not cured. If anything it made the outside world a scarier place and set me back quite a few paces.

I can relate to the being tired of just being... I struggle a lot with that. Wish I had words of wisdom. Instead, all I cansay is I'm sorry you are feeling so low. And I understand. You are not alone.