I am not knowing what I am feeling after receiving some news. All I know is that it feels like I want to cut. I think I am at a place in my life that I won't. But it is a strong urge.

My sister texted to say she is pregnant. I have one child and miscarried in the past. I wanted lots of kids. It is so hard still to hear those words that someone is pregnant.

Cutting would be a fast and easy way to calm down and soothe myself but it does not last long. I am glad I see T on Tuesday. Just needed to reach out and not feel so alone.