I've just started my BP meds, but I did this for years with ADs. On and off and on and off...I'm sooooo annoying. I don't know the answer. I'm sure eventually I will convince myself that I rock without the pills and I just don't need them. Then I will torture myself and my family and destroy it all to the point that I have to go to the ER and beg them to give the meds NOW. Embarrassed as all hell.

I think I just responded to your pregnancy post though. Don't mess with them if you are prego. Just talk to the doctor and do whatever you have to do to chill out with the meds as they are right now. Fluctuations in mood and/or trauma are proven to have an impact on a fetus.