I agree with Redsoft... Hang in there and keep going, a lot more people than you actually think would be able to understand what you're going through.

Your message was not a mess at all. In fact I found it coherent and very expressive. I found myself constantly putting masks on my face to be able to survive in social situations, to avoid closing down socially. But in the end they created more chatter and problems. You can't create something to supplant, something that is already there. I'm currently learning to meditate which has helped me a lot in calming my anxiety, social or not, helping me recognise the chatter, as just that, just blablabla, and given me the chance to go out into the world maskless... something a few months ago I would not have dared to do.

Best of luck and keep going!