I know exactly what you mean. Having to meet and mingle with people always stressed me, I felt self-conscious as if being judged or compared. In social situations such as parties etc, I would feel isolated, must have had low self-esteem. Now I`m 61 and so I don`t "socialise." I came to terms with feeling that way and after a while it didn`t bother me, if people accepted me fine if not that was fine too. Hope this makes sense, just remember you are as good as everyone else.