What was the process of your own recovery?

My T is very open and honest, and i am not afraid to ask her anything, but this is the 1 thing that she has not elaborated on, as she says it's not helpful to me, and may be triggering for me.
I know she cares for me, as when we had our big rupture and i went back to see her yesterday, she was shocked to realize that i didn't know she was "very fond" of me, and that she doesn't just think of me as 'another angry client'