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Originally Posted by itsmeleyreagain
I know they usually go hand in hand. My psychiatrist says (he thinks, I haven't still told him, but this next day I'mma).
I've got a problema. When I'm meeting my "friends", I enter in a very bad dissociative state, I think. I think it has to do, maybe, with the fact I met them when I was in a time of my life where I behaved like a wholly different person, absolutely not me now, in fact I don't recognize myself in the behaviours I had or anything, but one day everything ended, it was very, very strange, it was a time where my life changed, to worst, or not, much. I don't know if it's dissociation or what. Sometimes, a voice tells me I shouldn't meet my friends, because I shouldn't and I really don't want to, I didn't want it to happen, and in fact, I took that decisión, it's not like a decisión but mor elike, well, i'm gonna because i'm very much of a loner and meeting with them only makes me feel bad when i arrive home, but they have invited me to a birthday and tonight i slept really bad, there has been a span of time where my stomach ached a lot (i know this is classical anxiety). It increases my dissociative states, or whatever is it that happens that I HATE, I REALLY HATE (i'd say another thing but they forbid profanity here, so i'll try not to swear)I always end up telling people I'm not going anywhere in the last minute, or I end up (the last summer, when this was lesser or I was less aware of what was goingon) going like a pig to its death, and i feel horrible, i have tics, trembling, i feel very tense, i'm very mean even, it's like i was another person, i think the best proof not only of love to me but to them would be not going today, that's the way i see it, and the best proof od love to my parents too, who are the people ilove the most in the world.
The last time I had to leave, i had an attack i don't know really what, but i thought i was going to faint and switch, like my brain couldn't take anymore, and they had to take me to the psychiatrist 3 days after, I'm glad it happened because my problems have seen the light and i don't live cheating on people so much. What do I do? Do I tell my mum I can't go? What excuse can I use? How can I survive this without dissociating and having to do all the **** I usually do, that this time I'm not sure I'm surviving? Like I was fragmented? It's like I had two personalities. Ask me questions, I need it. And soon, because the birthday is in 5 hours.
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question what do you mean by dissociation?, dissociative state?
what happens to you when you dissociate.....
see one thing about dissociation is that people who dissociate usually know what happens but they dont always know what they are doing is called dissociation....
you have been in therapy since you were 14 according to another post...one way people find out whether they are dissociating or not is by what their psychiatrist diagnoses them with and tells them...
another way people know whether they are dissociating or not is by feeling a certain way..
dissociating isnt about hearing voices...hearing voices is a psychotic symptom with most mental disorders and can happen with medications, not getting enough sleep..
there is a dissociative disorder where a person sometimes hears voices but the voices are a different kind of voice from for example the voices you hear with your delusional disorder or the voices you hear with your schizophrenia symptoms..
only your treatment provider can tell the difference and which type of voices you are hearing...
this is because so many things can cause a person to hear voices...medications, sleep problems, not eating right, not drinking enough water and other completely normal things can cause a person to hear voices... as can hallucinations, delusions, mania and many other things...
your other post said you have been in therapy as young as 14 yrs old.. your mental health psychiatrist can tell you which type of voice you are hearing and why the voice is there...
your question whats the difference between dissociation and anxiety....anxiety is things like feeling scared, nervous, jumpy, dissociation is not feeling any emotions at all, just feeling numb and spacey,
dissociation is not about hearing voices, and feeling like someone is telling you to do bad things or dont do something.
dissociation is a reaction to things..
you know how if someone says something funny to you, you laugh. when you are sad you may cry....
well dissociation does the opposite.. when a person is having a hard time handling something their body shuts down their emotions..you dont feel any more...
example in another post you talked about how you were bullied and how that made you feel...if you had dissociated during that bad situation you would not have felt the way you did. you would have felt nothing.
another example...in this post you stated
meeting with them only makes me feel bad when i arrive home, but they have invited me to a birthday and tonight i slept really bad, there has been a span of time where my stomach ached a lot (i know this is classical anxiety)
if you had dissociated during this situation you would not have felt bad when you got home, you wouldnt have had a hard time sleeping and you wouldnt have had your anxiety symptoms....you would have felt nothing other than numbness and spacey, some people describe it as feeling drugged or sleepy.
thats the difference between anxiety and dissociation....anxiety makes you feel and dissociation makes you not feel.
my suggestion please contact your psychiatrist, they can help you with all this instead of trying to self diagnose and end up doing more harm to your self then good.