OK that makes sense. I think in the case my sister in law is talking about, I just get busy concentrating on something like bookkeeping and she's asking me a quick question about something and I answer it because it's a simple question and don't give it another thought. Then later I'm like. . .oh I don't remember what were you asking me?

One thing weird about her is that if something is not her experience, she assumes it's abnormal. Which, is really annoying. She assumes her reality is THE only way. I have never met a person with a lower ability to put herself in someone else's shoes. Actually if you want to talk about triggering or stress. . . man I could write a novel. I do care about her and she and I are really close but there are very many times that she makes me feel like she thinks she's perfect. Very annoying.

On the other hand a few weeks ago I was running a booth at our fall festival and was feeling really panicky so I just decided I'd get through it. My pastor came across the room and was trying to get my attention but I didn't notice him until he was almost in my face going HELLLOOOOO and waving his hand back and forth. Of course I was also trying Zoloft and Xanax that week so who knows.

Again thanks guys. You're really helping me a lot.

I still don't know about that feeling I get with someone else inside me reaching out to me. . . trying to get me to help them. It's spooky. Also once when I tried Prozac several years ago I had this dream that this "inner child" got mad at me for trying to do counseling and meds and she jumped out of me and ran to the kitchen to get a knife to hurt me. I woke up freaking out and was afraid to go back to sleep!

I know it was just a dream but heck. . .the thought had to come from somewhere. After that I ditched the whole "inner child" counseling for several years until just this month with my new counselor.

I appreciate you guys humoring me with all my questions.

I'm completely amazed at the unique ways we all find to cope in life. It just shows how strong we are, doesn't it? And creative!