I'm sure your family and friends will understand your withdrawing, to sort things out in your head. This online friend sounds very controlling, and I am glad to hear that you are stepping back from him.
You didn't deserve what happened!! I am sure that intellectually, you may understand that, but what your friend said, was an abusive comment, because words hurt, sting and they can replay themselves over and over again.
Was he the type of friend that asked for all the little details?! The ones that you were never obligated to share?!
What happened to you in the assault was about Power and Control, and if you ever need someone to chat with, feel free to PM me
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Originally Posted by hope2013
After the rape I was terrified at the idea of being rejected by guy based on what had happened. I ended up in an online relationship with someone I had never met in person.
He said I shouldn't tell anyone about the rape, which increased my insecurities. He was very clingy and didn't let me lead a normal lifestyle (he expected us to be chatting for 6-7 hours a day). It was after I ended things with him that I realised I have the power to heal myself. When I ended things with him he said I deserved to be raped.
I have become very selfish since then, I hope my family and friends can forgive me in the future.
I am from the countryside, so there are no rape survivors groups in my area. The good news is that I resumed my college studies last month. So hopefully that's a step forward.
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